To know me

To really know me, you will need time

To know me you need to find me distracted

With my guard down

Lost in my thoughts, immerse in the moment

Something that it’s not that common,

because I make an effort to always be aware

Of people looking at me

To know me you need to see how I treat my clothes

And you will see the attention I give to each piece

The way I always separe boxers from socks when I wash them

Or the way I hang my hoodies, sweaters and pants in the doors

And the list, never forget my wishlist that’s in constant modification

With all the pieces that I’ve purchased and I’ll purchase

To know me you need to know that I’m always scare

Scare that nobody choses me to share their life with me

You will see it in my fake smile, in my heavy eyes

Fear that turns into sadness, that I will never be enough for someone

Afraid that I’ve never feel how it’s to be love in this romantic way (por ponerlo de otro modo)

To know me you need to be patient

Because I’m not the smartest, funniest or handsome men

Not even the most brave or the least stupid

But I hope that you get a nice surprise

When I will try to make you smile with some childish thing

In that moment you will know that I trust you

And I’m still figuring out who I am, how I am

To know me, maybe is to love me

To know me, maybe is to hate me

To know me.